Its been 3 years plus since ive gone out into the working world.
I can still remember the words a senior said to me during PRCP, my last student nursing attachment: "when you come out to work, you will realise how evil this world is."
After 3 years...realizing there's ppl out there, who would make use of their juniors, vent their anger on them, bully them to do their work that they are just plain lazy to do. Ppl out there who would slander your name and performance to make their own look better-never mind if you are going to lose your job if they can get the promotion they want.
Ppl who try to take you on a rebound. Ppl who try to get into a relationship with you just to receive.
Ppl who claimed to be your friends, but leave you in a ditch that they brought you to. And even someone 3 years YOUNGER than me who could keep lying to me.
I remembered why i loved plants-trees and flowers. Why i loved animals. Why i loved children.
They were the living things that would not harm me. They were safe. It was safe to love them, to admire them, to learn from them. And i learn from them still. Look into the eyes of a child. See the goodness that is there in the human heart, if only we would reach out to harness it. Look at the plants and animals. They understand and respond to goodness, to care, to love. There is beauty in this world yet. It might not be a perfect world and has never been anyway. But there is still much to rejoice over.
Everytime i hear a newborn baby cry,
Or touch a leaf,
Or see the sky,
Then i know why,
I believe~
I still believe.
Childlikeness, innocence, naivety, trust, love.
These are gifts from up above for us to hold and keep and cherish.
Its a blessing, and a choice.
"I am sending you out as sheep among wolves. Therefore be as shrewd as snakes and innocent as doves." Matthew 10:15-17
