Been really stressed up over the coming PRCP attachment. Trying not to be can only help some. Surrendering helped more. Now I just have to trust and pray and trust and pray.
Mon was a whole day of planning for the following year. It brought my mind off the coming attachment to all the future changes to take place next year that i had forced myself not to think about.
I should say, one major plus one not as major transition. Well i hope its not as major. Theres changes every year of course but two transitions scare me. (one is enough to scare me lots already actually. High 'S' ppl dun like change. Much less transitions.)
Actually i do not even know if im still a high S person. hahaha. But since nursing requires high S high C high D and high I (and who's high in everything?!?) I suppose it doesnt really matter what i change into, if i have changed. Nursing has this endless list of traits and abilities you should have. Ok, not endless. But just way too much. XD
Reading my brother's blog today has really encouraged me. I don't have to question if i have what it takes. I already know, i don't.
But i know God does. I may lack a lot, but He's perfect. He lacks nothing. And He lives in me.
And He will give His 100% if i put in mine. So its simply a question of giving the best worship i can, praying and persevering. Pastor Eve said something on Mon that really opened my eyes. Everyone struggles with their different issues. The key is not to give up or run away but to work through these issues. And this is real strength.
Real strength isnt about being perfect or having no struggles or no flaws. But trusting God to help you work all these out and never giving up.
His blog post encouraged me because there was a fighting spirit. It encouraged me, because it reminded me of something Candy had once shared.
'God gives us dreams, but sometimes we also have to fight for those dreams . So that we will cherish them.'
If God simply magically gave us the fulfillment of the plans he has for us, we couldnt be moulded in the process. We also probably wouldnt cherish it as much.
Dear God, thank you for your love and patience and grace to journey this road with me. I will cherish this journey (:
100%man, 100% God. And whats best is He never leaves our side. Step by step, He'll walk through with us. You carried the cross, and the sins and sicknesses and weight of the world, and perservered through that. What can be too difficult for you?
I know You're with me..and i will believe the truth: You are more than enough.
Truths can set us free (:
Isaiah 26:3
"You will
keep in perfect peace all who
trust in you, all whose
thoughts are fixed on you!"(NLT)
"You will keep in perfect peace him whose
mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you." (NIV)
