Yesterday was a really happy and meaningful day. It was the 1st of Oct, the flag day for Touch Community Services this year. I met with Suzanne for breakfast at N&B, and then we met the rest of the cell at Orchard MRT at 10.15am. Suzanne and I were stationed at this bus stop to collect donations. We were supposed to fill half the tin and then call Candy to exchange for another tin as we had more tins than people and Pastor asked us to return less than 4 empty tins if possible.
Flag day was super tiring lah! It's always tiring every year, but more so this year because I had slept at 3 am the night before. But God still spoke to me. First from what Suzanne said. She was quite upset over people rejecting her, which is normal for flag day so I wasn't bothered by it, but she was shocked at some people's reactions because it was her first flag day. She whispered to me that some people completely ignored her, and later on she was quite upset when a man told her to go away.
Then suddenly I thought of how God never gave up loving us. We can be upset when strangers ignore us, but God still chose the cross even though he knew his own disciples would ignore him by claiming to have never known him. And they were so much more than strangers to him. Yet he chose to love us and he chose the cross.
The second thing thing was my bag. I'd brought books to study after service while my brother had cell, and the bag was super heavy. Then I realised that in chosing the cross, Jesus had to suffer physically as well. The cross he bore on his scarred back was so much more unbearable than my bag, yet he chose to bear it. He suffered emotionally and physically knowing full well that there would be those that ignore the gospel or even refuse it.
Through this whole time I could really feel God's presence and love for me, and it was really wonderful. I had prayed for God to speak to me and had expected him to, but I hadn't expected him to remind me of his love and faithfulness to me. It was amazing, and I knew it was also linked to having faith and trusting in him. God was also reminding me that I did not have to worry and could put my trust in a powerful and loving God like him. :)))
Worship during service was great, and the sermon was good too. ' Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all this things will be added unto you' was a verse that spoke to me the most. Mus remember not to let the urgent things take over the important things in my life. I'm at risk here because I am the weedy soil kind, and this is like a reminder to me especially since I've started to study again for the upcoming super threatening 'O's. (5 more weeks)
I have started to find reading God's word less of a chore, of which I must really thank God! yay! :)) It's very encouraging :) After psalm 119 and Claire's sharing, I realised that 'your word is a lamp unto my feet and a guide for my path' means that God's word is a guide to our daily life and not just when we need guidance at crossroads, like choosing schools or jobs. Psalm 119 also showed me that God's word is really important, in other aspects as well. :) Studying for 'O's and tiredness must not stop me doing QT. DISCIPLINE. yeps :)
Had dinner with the cell at Yoshinoya :) Evelyn talked to me about Delia and Lisa...and she said that she would call Delia :) I hope that Delia would feel better after her call...need to pray really really hard for this encounter. For Lisa, Suzanne, Delia, my brother and hopefully, Rinku and Ru Jia...this is like the first encounter that I'm going with the intention of just giving, hopefully I'll be able to help some of them out. Would probably try to fast 3 days before the encounter. Can't fast before that because of 'O's.
After dinner Claire and i studied at Mac's while waiting for our brothers. Claire did maths until she was totally blur lar. So cham. I did social studies which wasn't half as bad. After Lionel's cell ended, Claire started a round of sharing after we studied a little longer. Kevin, Gavin, Claire, my brother, and I were supposed to share about our 'ambition'. I thank God that I managed to actually share quite a lot. I was almost as talkative as Claire lah. Am startimg to share more openly again, though I still felt afraid despite knowing i wasn't. Ok, this part is complicated. hahas. But praise God! :)))
Yups so this was my wonderful day yesterday. :) Pray that I would remember the thigs that I've learnt :) Today I taught Kah Peng some english and studied my social studies. Aim to finish my social studies revision by Wed. Have maths tuition tomorrow. Argh. Have to start piaing maths again le. Going to teach my brother chemistry now. Might be too busy during the week to blog daily. :( But I suppose I can still blog a little lah. :)
