I'm gonna have panda eyes tomorrow. hahas. Because I'm supposed to meet Lisa at 7.30am to study tomorrow. We're going to study from 7.30am-6.30pm and maybe after dinner. Gosh. I hope we really study. Because I totally wasted today. Studied only in the afternoon. I have like 8 chapters to study tomorrow. Maybe I won't sleep tonight. study 3 chapters first. But we have a 'reward'. Finish studying and we can talk. haha. Hopefully that would keep us focused.
I'm quite bewildered. Hopeful? yea, that too. Something wonderful happened on Saturday. Jean's voice came back on Sat night at Fish & Co. (We had cell outing there :) ) The thing is, she said it came back during worship at service. It was today that I realised something. Evelyn paired us up after cell to pray for each other, and I was with Jean. And I prayed for God to heal her. Then we had all rused to service.
Which kind of stunned me. Like, maybe God answered my prayer? Because if it was my prayer it was pretty instant. I suppose I'm hopeful because when I was in sec 2 and Laurel was my leader, I had gone for a few SOL 1 lessons, one of which was on spiritual gifts. And we were told to ask for a gift. Su San, Jocelyn and I think Butt was there too. I had asked for the gift of healing. And Pastor Lai Fun had prayed for me. I remember a lot of what she said. There was a part where she said God says he would give this gift to me. A gift of healing people not just physically but also emotionally. But that before I could heal, I would first have to be healed. And that he would heal me.
So I knew it would be some time before I could actually 'use' this gift that God has blessed me with. Could it be that I can actually 'use' this gift now? I think I will write to Evelyn about this. She has to know. yups. And she can help me too. And if I can really help in this way, if this gift can really now be used, I am going to be so amazed, happy, grateful, and I don't know what else. I read this word about a month or two ago....
"For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands. For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-dicipline" 2 Tim 1:6-7
Could it really mean what I think it does? All the same, praise God that Jean's healed! :)))
PS: Yup Val is definately gonna have panda eyes tomorrow. It's Bio and then the letter to Evelyn. :)
You did not want our sacrifice and offerings But a broken spirit and a contrite heart You will not despise, you will not despise Oh a broken spirit and a contrite heart
Lord a heart of worship Is what you desire A heart that burns with passionate fire A heart that's undivided in love with you In spirit and truth
