I have so much to blog today.Today Evelyn is going to call Delia and pray for her. I'm really glad. I hope that Evelyn can encourage her. She's very demoralised because of her prelim results. Lisa is also demoralised but I know she will study harder. She did badly but not that badly, and besides she's the kind that can do well if she studies hard. Like me. I would also say I did badly. But I could have done worse and I'm really grateful for God's blessings that I might actually get into JC for the first 3 months.
Ru jia did even worse than Delia. And she tells me that she's given up on her studies. Like Delia. Delia did study hard. But she's just not the kind cut out for studies. Ru jia studied but last minute I think. And her last minute can be the day of the exam. Maybe she did study hard for prelims though. I'm not sure. But I can't talk to her. Think I must ask Liang Ming to talk to her. She might listen to Liang Ming. Rinku hasn't replied my sms yet. Hope she did well for her studies despite her problems. She's very capable academically.
Am glad Meow Teng got third in class. She studied really hard. Hope she does well for church. Maybe I could invite her for church after 'O's. :) Praying hard for Kah Peng and Hui Hui, who are having their 'N'-levels. My brother who has end-year-exams. Claire who has streaming and Joce who has promos. Clem if you are reading my blog : PLEASE STUDY HARD. YOU MUST GET PROMOTED. PLEASE. Claire and Joce, Jia you! It'll be over soon! :)
Yesterday God's word spoke to me a lot. At first I was quite blur. Read the word and wondered why God gave me that word, Romans 8:28. Because I've read it before and even memorised it. Then I realised that I'd started to forget this verse. Forget as in I didn't apply it when i needed to. And yesterday I kind of needed to. Am really glad that I've been reading God's word daily. It really makes a difference when you are sincere.
Anyways. I was quite upset over my parents' questioning and stuff. They found out FC was moving to expo. I intended to tell them in Dec, but they found out beforehand. My mum found out about it earlier but she was okay with it after asking me what why there was a move and what we were going to do with the TC and TCT buildings. I don't mind her asking. But my dad found out later and questioning became interrogating. Then he was like, 'what a waste of money!!!' and shook his head.
Haiz. I don't have all the anwers. But what I do know is that FC is not doing anything wrong. Why must you find fault with every single thing that the church does? I really wish to obey you, but I must obey God first. And I know that God's way is always best and right.
I also told my dad about prelims results a few days before. He was really angry over maths. When he had calmed down the next day, I told him I was fifth in class. And that maybe I would try for JC for the first 3 months. And he asked me, 'NJC? VJ? That's what I thought of my daughter' I was thinking, you are really mad. I'm not of a 6/7/8pointer calibre. 12 points which I'm aiming for is hard enough to get. It would already be miraculous. 6-8points is beyond miraculous. It would be super miraculous. Why must you expect so much of me? I'll try my best. But that's the most that I can do! If my best isn't good enough, I'm really sorry. I don't expect you to be perfect. Please don't expect me to be...
I really don't see what good can come out of these problems. But I will trust in the word that God has blessed me with. All of these happened for a reason. God has a divine plan. " For we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose."-Romans 8:28 And God reminded me that I am made to praise Him. And that I am deeply loved, completely forgiven, fully pleasing and totally accepted by God. :) I know that God will help me. I must really thank him for blessing me with his presence all the way home. He empowers us to do what he asks of us to do..." I can do everything through Him who gives me strength." phil4:13 PTL! :)
I will bless the Lord forever I will trust Him at all times He has delivered me from all fear He has has set my feet upon a rock
And I will not be moved And I'll say of the Lord
You are my shield, my strength My portion, deliverer My shelter, strong tower My very present help in times of need
Lord Your love is higher than the mountains Lord Your love is deeper than the sea Lord Your love is wider than the oceans It's a steadfast love You have given me
Your love is new every morning New every morning Like the sun that rises from the east Your love is new every morning New every morning I am grateful for Your love to me
