Am on a journey of learning to trust and have faith in God. Sometimes it gets very hard! Worrying about mathamathmaths. This one stupid subject can 'hai' me to repeat one more whole year at school. TRUST. just have to study hard and trust...
Worrying about finances. Don't think my parents have enough money for me to go for a poly course. $2000 per year leh! Lucking I'm aiming to go to nursing course....can apply for subsidy with a 3-year bond...I have gotta pass maths to get in first though. argh. No way am I going to JC lor. Though I can go for the first three months and want to learn subjects like Geography in JC, I've had enough maths to last me this entire lifetime. And the next. Luckily the bible doesn't say anything about studying maths in Heaven.
Wonder why you even need to pass maths to get into nursing in the first place. People who are doing the course told me that there isn't maths and that it's mostly Biology, Physics and hands-on skills. Like learning practical. They start learning how to inject people by practising on oranges. I really can't imagine.
Never even thought of nursing when I was younger. TRUST. God is going to either say, 'haiz, okay' or burst out laughing at my faithlessness if I ask him to confirm again for the hundredth time that that's what he wants me to do. I am going to have such a hard time telling Evelyn this lah. Especially since she wants me to go to SP. Must open my golden mouth the next time she asks. Candy will make me tell her sooner or later anyway.
Wondering how to help the many people asking me for help. Worrying for them too..Candy reminded me of a verse. 'Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete' John 16:24 :) And since I have asked, I should just stop worrying. Yesterday night this verse was in the daily devotional I read..'Fear not, for I have redeemed you, I have called you by your name, you are Mine' Isaiah 43:1 . God has saved me from the need to live in fear. :)))
God will make a way Where there seems to be no way He works in ways we cannot see He will make a way for me He will be my guide Hold me closely to his side With love and strength for each new day He will make a way He will make a way
